Too Much

It has occurred to me that maybe I try to do too much.

When I moved to the other side of the world to be with my fiance', I don't think I realised how much effort would be involved in maintaining relationships. At the time, I thought to myself that only four family members and a few friends would be what I would need to keep ties with. I forgot that other things would get in the way.

Social networking sites have made it easier to stay in contact with people. But honestly, is it enough? Sure, I know that today my friend is taking a son to the doctor, but I don't know what for or if there's something I should be concerned with. Not to mention the fact, that if I were there I would be calling her straight away. But when I see the update, it's already been 8 hours, and I feel my chance to be a good friend is gone.

With Facebook, I have just under 200 friends. Some work friends here, and some friends that live in another state, but most are old high school friends or friends before I moved. That's a lot of people to keep up with. Probably 50% of those make regular status updates, while the other 50% don't. I have friends in the same town as me that I rarely get to see or speak to. Technology has linked so many people together, but how much of it tears people apart as well? I can communicate in seconds with someone 16 hours away from me, but do I?

Let's not also discount the fact that other things happen in your life. I work full-time. I have a massive love of video games, and reading, and watching movies, and writing. So what takes priority? Other than the obvious work, eat, sleep? I can multitask. I read my FB and Google Reader and Twitter on a regular basis while I watch something or I'm playing WoW. But I rarely use my phone to call people anymore. And I find I forget websites on a regular basis. Especially my forum(s). I stay connected, but I feel disconnected from everything.

Something has to give. Where do you find the balance between all of these things? I also want to start working out and getting back into some shape that isn't round around the belly. So what do I do? Do I make myself a schedule of when I do certain things? That way I have to stick to it? How does that help with my wanting to write as well? Do I make it a priority when I suddenly feel the urge and inspiration to write? So many unanswered questions, and with not a single person to answer. (As I've kept this blog fairly private.)

ughhh....